Tuesday, October 18, 2011
The Shadow of Me
Yesterday was not such a great day. Lots of things are coming down and after a nice weekend, the events of the day wore me thin. Nothing is horrible, but nothing is great either--it's all just things that need tending to--which is sort of exhausting. I hope this passes quickly--I've got things to do.
It just happens that along with the chaos of my life, the pond needed to be shut down. There is something sad about that for me. I know that my pond friends are not all safe and sound for the winter and so I spend half of the year worrying about those pallies. Oh, if every snail would survive, if every frog awoke each spring, and if all that damn algae would die off. Funny how the things you want to survive don't, and the things you could do without, blossom. Sigh. That is just like life, isn't it?
I spent half a day resuscitating my little frog yesterday. Nothing like starting the day with a white belly facing you at the bottom of the pond. Sigh. It's these little things that set me back--set my mood on "low" for the better part of the day. I have this "frog test" which determines whether a frog is dying or if it is just hibernating, and it was put into action. I think we have "hibernation", but I'm never quite sure--only spring will tell for sure. I don't like that waiting stuff--I'm not very good at it.
I took some time last night to sit down and read some of my blog roll. I feel like I'm a shadow of myself these days--running through the have-tos and the routine without stopping to really enjoy. I'm gonna work on that this week--and while I won't be flying through all your blogs, I am going to catch up and actually read all the posts I've been missing. I'm tired of being that shadow--even if it makes me look tall and thin.
Commence working a little less and living a little bit more.